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Hey, I'm back with my beloved blog after 2 days struggling with my lappy. Haha
My beloved lappy was under terrible conditions. Some kind of settings in Internet Explorer was set wrongly, causing me not to be able to open my blog. I was on mood of getting good idea for one entry 2 days ago. However, when i opened my blog, there was problems that I could not log in. Virus? Goodness, that's so troublesome and irritating.
Nevermind! I have resystemed my lappy, yup, it's now on good conditions. Anyway, it looks good and clean! Haha. At this moment, my iTunes is refreshing. Yeah! I regret just a little as all of my beloved emoticons are gone! :(
Anyway, yesterday was sports carnival. Wow! It was a lot of fun as I was on sports leaders' duty although the weather was super super hot, just like burning me. I was in charge of floorball and some other stuffs. At least, during this time, I'm closer to a lot of school mates, especially some student leaders. Hehe. I'm excited about revival of Bartley school. That's so great!
I was on duty with Teck Ee at floorball area. Yup, the teacher as the judge was Mr. Imran - my Chemistry teacher. Haha. I get used to his reaction, whether it's ... or ... . Haha. Such a poor thing for Teck Ee as he has to give out the ball and chasing after the ball while I stood there and recorded the scores.
Both were under the sun and wanted to faint. My shiny cap was with me and another cap was with Joline. I know my cap is the most striking on the field as the sun was shining directly from the top. Haha. Ok, at least, I don't have a symptom of getting sick yet. I'm fit and healthy. HAHAHAHA (I know Darryl Seah will laugh when I type like this). Teck Ee spot something. All the 4Es classes' floorball teams are very violent. I'm one of them too (Laughing out loud!). I have no comment about it.
After my duty, I relaxed and looked at people who were running for relay. That looked interesting. I love all kinds of sports, especially softball, badminton, floorball and volleyball. Sports keep me healthy and fit. Sports are fun and exciting. I don't know why i'm not so interested in football and basketball. Anyway, a softball match has much more interesting climax. I think God really puts me at the right position as a sports leader of my class. Haha.
'Sports' is an interesting topic that I could not miss. Haha. I love playing sports. My brother has been in love with badminton same as me although he is just 8 years old. He is good at hitting the shuttercock as hard as fast that sometimes I couldn't approach it. Wah, zai! Haha. Anyway, he is trained by me! HAHAHAHA
Anyway, I should return back to Sports carnival's topic to end the entry as it's too long alrd. I had a great time working with Teck Ee, Joline, Wee Keat, Elisabeth, Kenneth, Kevin and other sports leaders. They are cute and funny. We really did a great job on that day in the red T-shirts! Here is a great thanks to all of you.
Love,
LY
LY ♥ JESUS!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
I wish I could hug him and confide with him once more...
I wish he will be able to know my spiritual home and return back to God whom he can depend on and overcome all burdens...
I wish I would be able to share with him my happiness as I have a full family...
I wish I could do something to make my friend happier and happier...
Once, I talked to him. God knows what I'm doing. God lets me talk to him and get closer to him. I believe and can see he will be saved again.
I'm not feeling pitiful for him but I do love him as a unloved person. Why is there so many troubles his life? I could see the broken pieces in his heart. I didn't know why I can stone here and imagine about his life now. What can I really do?
If i were him, my heart would bleed and I even would have low self-esteem. But my friend does not. He got used to it. He has no mother with him when he was just 2 years old after she gave birth to the second child - his brother. The mother brought the brother away for a few years.
After those few years, the heartless woman left his brother to his daddy and him. His daddy has worked hard since that moment to bring up the two motherless sons. He is totally busy working to earn money. At least, finance was not a problem as his daddy's job is fine for 3 people at home.
Since his father is almost not at home the whole week, he has to take care of himself and his brother. Nobody cooks for them so they have to eat outside. What else can they do actually? In the past, they both loved each other. Growing up by ages, their relationship gradually has fallen apart. They talk to each other less. Nobody was there to become a meditator between two of them. It's been worse and worse. I wish I could ...
Looking at my friend, I know he has been hurt a lot. I wish I could do something to heal the broken pieces of him. I wish I could give him a hug that he seldom has. People who are heartless to him are hatred and deserve to be persecuted. Do they have a heart for others who have more difficult life than them? I'm not gonna be like those people... Now I love him as I don't have a difficult life as him. I love to do something as talking to share with him more about God...
When God is in heaven, of course, He will hear and see what I'm doing towards my friend. God is powerful to give him a more beautiful life than that. And I believe God is giving me power to get closer to my friend and to help my friend. God is getting him back to remember the heavenly Father he knew once. I believe in the love of the Father in heaven ...
LY ♥ JESUS!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I think all my posted entries are exciting. I laugh when everytime I read it again and again. I consider it not my daily diary but my accumulation of 'one-word' essays.
My teacher said that there's improvement in the way I write my essays. Sometimes, just because of bursting out (stressed), I let it down a bit. Haha. But I have passed all the way.
I'm now half not on good mood, half on good mood. In general, i'm ok. Today maybe my moody day? Yup, I walked around Popular bookshop at Parkway Parade for nearly one hour, looked all the stuffs there and actually was deadly 'emo'. Tsk!
I won't tell on my blog why I was 'emo'. I let it over alrd. I found it ok to know it and now I have beliefs that could make me happy and found someone trustworthy. I miss my leader like mad. I just saw him 1 week ago. There's so many things happening with him. I do trust in him. He can overcome it! God is great!
Ok, the bad mood is gone after writing it out! Hahaha.
Darryl Seah is sick today. Tsk. I have reminded him so much things to do during the time he's sick. I deeply hope my dearie friend should follow the things I have advised him. All my Cat High friends are funny! I love to repeat it because I love them. I pray that his sickness will be over tomorrow. At least, he's not online now. It means he's resting well!
I'm always happy in school, however, deadly sleepy. Tsk! Every morning, I drink coffee which belongs to the heavy kind - extremely dense. Yet, I still fell asleep in class. My whole class know that I'm the sleepy angel who was scolded by teachers millions of times. Hahaha.
When I'm awake, it's the time for me not to get taller and taller (people are calling me short), but to get higher and higher. I laughed most of the time in school. Nobody else, Bobby, Xiwen, Pasit, Sandeep, Korravee, Leonard, Teck Ee and Johnathan are my jokers. The last row of tables in class are the noisiest people in class, including me. Who could believe that I was a super super quiet 'emo' in class in sec 2? Oh no, now i'm just like a talking machine. Hahaha.
There's one conclusion drawn by me. All the people who can talk a lot, get VERY VERY GOOD score for their English 'O' level result. Let me see, Jian Fan - the funky and lame joker has got A1, Kristopher Fu - nobody can be more nonsense than him, has got A2! Tsk... See, they talk 24/24hours per day. They can give any lame joke that people laugh and run away! HAHAHAHA. The latest joke from Jian Fan I have heard is on Sunday about the 'Superman's action'! I'm laughing again ... It's so great to know those brothers in Christ.
Oh, I remembered, I met Kao last Sunday. Kao - one of my beloved dudes, came to church last Sunday and ran away from me after service. Hix ... what a friend like him?! (Haha). Kao misses me like mad and I do too. He said he likes my funky hair style last summer? Goodness, i'm scared of it alrd. Hahaha. That punk guy always loves those weird things. I have no comment at all. Anyway, I love to see him. I can joke with him all the time. He is a Thai, yup, a Thai friend can make me laugh the whole day!
I should end this entry now to 'chong' any homework. What could I tell you guys? I slept from 7 30pm until 11pm just now. Currently at this moment it is 12 15am. Blogging is my way of practising writing and typing English essays. Yup, like I have recommended before, it really does help me to improve my language. Haha. Actually Pastor How and Pastor Lia have motivated me to do well in my languages. Listening to sermons is my way to improve my English and also to receive the words of God. I love them! :)
Ok, it's time to say goodbye and see another day, my blog! Hey, I didn't know that I have typed too long until I scrolled it up and down! Hahahaha.
Love,
LY
LY ♥ JESUS!
Sunday, March 23, 2008
It's Saturday. Once again, I was excited to do Usher duty. And today's duty is the BEST!
Warriors, ...
1 00pm, they were working hard and did their best.
...
the fun came. ...
...
the new experiences. ..
.. service started and ended.
7 30pm, clearing up.
This is the fun part! HAHAHA.
After clearing all stuffs for service running, ushers had been happily following Noni who loves to spot mistakes from ushers. Haha. Cupboard has done arranging. Curtains were set up. Cubid was cleaned twice. Chairs were arranged nicely and neatly. Floor was swept and mopped. Cuboats are kept. Direction stands are kept. Chains are kept. Pastors' water tray and stuffs are washed and kept. Communion sets are kept. Leaders' bible and notebooks are kept. Everything was really perfectly done. Haha. We saw Noni's lovely smile. Haha. Warriors rock! :P
Together we went to spot mistakes with Noni. Gang Yuan and Fu Rong began to run up before he came but he kept them back. We could just follow Noni to walk around. Haha. As we turned to the store at the left side of the cross-shaped stage, we were going to be panic if there was any mistake. I suddenly remembered, the umbrellas had not been kept yet. They were still beside girls' toilet. I told FuRong who was behind me. Wei Tze and Bryce were walking in front of me. Fu Rong and me turned very panic, running back to the umbrellas' position. Wei Tze and Bryce were shocked and also ran after. We ran like mad towards the umbrellas and didn't let Noni know. The others usher just followed Noni and Shermaine. The four people in black ran like dancing ballet.
As Noni finished checking the left side, he and other ushers turned back to auditorium to go to right side of stage to check. Fu Rong, me and Wei Tze had to hide behind the pillar beside the reception, observing Noni to spot a suitable time to 'chong'! Hahahahahaha ...
While we were waiting for Noni to come in right side's store, I looked throught the hole of the pillar to observe Noni. I think Noni saw me hiding something. Hahaha. He told ushers something, of course, we could not hear that. I think he asked the other ushers, 'Why are they there?". We quickly hided our face inside but together laughed like mad. Once, Noni was stepping towards the right store. Fu Rong, Wei Tze and me 'chong' - ran like mad crossing the auditorium like clowns. I was running and laughing like a crazy girl. Everybody except Noni who didn't know what was happening, was looking at us and laughing, even ushers following Noni. The most striking black features crossing the auditorium quickly were us. WAHAHAHAHA!
That was so fun! I can't stand it! I laughed out loud when I joined back with ushers. Fu Rong, Wei Tze and me gave one another the loving 'hi-5'! We won Noni once! LOLLLLLLL!
This is the funniest usher duty that I have ever got. Fu Rong, Wei Tze and me have got a laughing story for all the other ushers today. It's so fun to work with all Warriors - the jokers of the black ministry. I love Warriors.
LY ♥ JESUS!
USHER!
1:10 AMUsher - Yup, one of my beloved ministries. I LOVE USHERSSSSSSSSSSSSS! - This is the way I love my ministry expressively and verbally. Haha.
I have been in church for 8 months and yet, in usher ministry for 7 months plus. Usher is my first ministry in Heart of God church. The men and women in black impressed me during my first time in FTMS house. Elysia is really an influencing usher. The first usher I looked at was Ely. I think she wouldn't know that and now i'm surprising her!
When i had been in church for 2 weeks, I quickly asked Kris to let me join usher. And then I was put in this amazing ministry. The first person in this ministry contacted me was ShanYong - the giant and generous friend I have ever met and also the accelerating guy. I had training with Jian Ming. And in the first time I met Jian Ming, Jian Ming was wearing standard formal black. I remembered clearly that day I was late for training due to CIP in school. With sweat, I learnt a big lesson. Jian Ming is really A GREAT MAN of GOD!
And my first duty was on 22th July 2007. My chief usher was Nadine - the girl I consider I love the way she's serious and strict. My first team was Fighters - I still love Fighters and consider it the best. I'm bringing the Fighters' spirit to Warriors. My position was at the white door of the auditorium at the left side if we stepped in FTMS house from the lift.
Yup, I remembered clearly every single moment I was on my first duty. The first day I didn't join the service much. I remembered some of the ushers were with me, Nadine - of course, Keegan who was just SL but now a skillful chief usher, Nicholas Sim - the guy i respect, Imai - the funky girl I looked at with wide sight. Haha. They're friendly to welcome me. I didn't talk so much as my English was totally lousy. My speaking was not as good and did not have confidence to talk. I was so blur and scared of my first duty that day with a lot of people - 500! That day was the day Fighters made the history of Usher ministry - 470 chairs in 15 minutes. WOW!
Together my first day of duy was my birthday celebration from D4 - my first birthday held in Heart of God church !!!!!!! Ushers were singing happy birthday song to me too! Wah ... It has deeply sown into my heart and mind. Haha. I read every single message in the card from D4. The funniest message was from Kao - the Thai guy i met first time on that day, 'Wish you a sexy b'day!' Haha.
And my second and third duties were during 'Festival of Praise 2007'. Haha, I had a lot of experiences when doing usher. And yet, Keegan and Sahai became chief ushers on the day of my 2nd duty. (If Keegan or Sahai read my blog, see! I'm recording your history! Haha). I have kept learning ...
And just like that I have grown in ushers. I gradually knew all the chief ushers and learnt a lot from them.
+ Nadine Leong - the girl I respect and love her way of being strict and serious.
+ Shan Yong - the giant guy who considers me as 'a lovely and exciting girl'. He doesn't think i'm quiet. Only he is the one who knows that I'm not quiet and even noisy. Haha.
+ Jeremy Lim aka Noni - the funniest chief usher whom I have learnt A LOT and A LOT of lessons from him. 'I remembered arh, Noni! You dropped my dream paper last week!'. Haha. Jeremy is at my own age. I can't believe thatttttttttt!
+ Keegan John Herald - the guy who is generous to me, last time always put me in section A1. I'm considering him my twin brother as Darryl Seah and Sherlyn spot me like a kind of Chinese ang-moh and he's at my own age too. If he was older than me, i will call him 'gege'. If he was younger than me, I would call him 'little brother'. Haha
+ Sean Ethan - I tell you guys, I haven't talked properly to him before. (Laughing like mad)
+ Cherie Low - I was on duty with her for once. She's nice and very friendly.
+ Pei Shan - She was the first chief usher I met. She kept smiling all the time when she met me.
Every single thing that they taught I remembered clearly. It's just like my brain is for remembering experiences from ushers. Haha. I'm now in Warriors - working with Keegan - the twin brother. It's fun to work in any team of Usher ministry, more experiences I would get.
I have been growing in God's will also because of Usher ministry where I can find the truly discipleship, the tidiness of being an usher, the friendliness of workind as an usher, the wide fellowship that I have in church, the bright smile I have now, is made from Usher ministry. Usher ministry has brought me up. God has truly placed me here - the right ministry to learn more and more.
What can i say else than I LOVE USHER? I JUST LOVE USHER!
LY ♥ JESUS!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
EASTER!
12:23 AMAnyone has been noticed that all of my entries are titled with just one word. I do love the 'one-word' essays. I think I would score like mad when I write this type of composition. Haha.
YUP, TODAY IS EASTER!
Nobody could know that it's my first Easter of life.
I have been in church not so long, not even one year. My first coming to church was in Red Rain concert. I accepted Christ also not in Red Rain concert but I got saved during the first service. Pastor Lia has influenced into my life on that day. So it's been around 8 months plus since the first time I came. But yet, this is my first time joining Easter.
It's really cool as my first Easter celebration is held in Heart of God church.
I was still busy like a bee.
-11am, went to laundry shop to take Pastor's toilet mat. But it's public holiday, aunty is enjoying holiday at home. Tsk...!
-11:20am, came up to church, took the big roses and spread it out together with ivory leaves to decorate all the toilet. Tsk... it's hard for me to do stuffs in the guys' toilet. It took me a long time and sweat drained if they think if i was a lesbian. Sian... Haha.
-11:40am, did some stocks as people borrowed black cloth. My goodness, they love that colour and made me confused! Haha.
-12plus, struggled with lighting up the aroma theorapies. Haha, met the problems with guys' toilet again. I did trouble a lot of people. Haha.
-1pm, went to play uno with new friends from Tock's side.
-2pm, went down with Darryl Seah and picked up a new girl - AN QI together with the Cat High Sec 3 cute guy - GA WYE! (I love my Cat High friends - They are so funny!)
-2:30pm, went up again and D2&D4 mixed up due to lacking of seats.
-3pm, SERVICE started.
-3pm - 5 30pm, SERVICE IS COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-5 30 - 6 30pm, time to talk to new friends! :D
-6 30 - 7pm, lighted up aroma theorapies again. Hahaha. Of course, problems with the guys' toilet.
-7 - 8pm, we sang KTV and played Saboteur! I love to play that game. So fun! Haha.
-8pm onwards until now, did daily life work! Haha
Easter was fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha
LY ♥ JESUS!
Friday, March 21, 2008
ANOTHER
12:32 AMTime to blog? Haha. I have a busy and tiring day! I was deadly blur for a few moments. Tsk... That is not random. Haha. I often have a day like today. Yes, it's so familiar to me and yet I get used to it.
This week is my busy week. I do like being busy. Being busy does make me cooler than others and make me learn and experience more. I love to be so.
Started...
Monday was just Monday - the first day of term 2. Yup, new term has come and it's really torturing me. I have been stressed by my study, my problems in life and my people around me. I'm not afraid of it otherwise, I'm facing and fighting. My vision is measured by time.
Tuesday is the hardest day. I had Amath test. Right now, at this moment, I know a lot of marks have gone. Tsk! Just today, Miss Yong spot the mistakes. They have given different answers compared to one another. It makes me confused but I would not care. Now I know my mistakes and am overcoming with it. In the afternoon, I went to ACJC to meet Hai to get Funfair ticket from him. Yet, the second reason is if i have a chance, I would meet Kris. It had been more than one month I didn't see him. Everybody does miss him like mad. And I met him for one minute over more than one month. He asked me to go home and do study to get scholarship. I'm influenced by what he said to me. I just follow him like I used to do. In the evening, Jooyu also came to ACJC to get tickets from her friend. She met Kris who did talk to her thrillingly. It was sad but I'm ok to know and I'm not 'emo' or sad. It took me 2hours to sit on the bus in the journey turning back home. First time of life.
Wednesday is 2.4km running practice. I did love that day. I kept running consistently and kept my breath and skills like ChuaChua - best friend has taught me. In the afternoon, I had to go to look for styrofoam eggs. Tsk, immediately after school, I went to Dhoby Gauht and Orchard to see styrofoam eggs in Spotlight and Artfriend. Spotlight has only one pair of small-sized eggs. Tsk, I turned my way to Takashimaya, went up to level 4 to 'Art friend'. I know I have loved the shop, soooooo EXCITING! Finally, the biggest styrofoam eggs are long only like 12cm. What we wanted was the 30 cm eggs but it doesn't appear on earth. It took me 5 hours walking around, just to look for styrofoam eggs. Haha. My own lonely time was fun. I returned back to church and met all my leaders who were around.
Today, nothing much but ... I did work hard with all my heart. I kept workind for 7 hours. That's really awesome. After school, I went to eat with my schoolmates, Rachel, WeeKiat, Sufian, Narest, Warren and 'I-forgot-his-name'. All the guys? Guess what? They come from the 'naughty' CCA. Tsk, NCC air people are really got affected by the madness of teacher-in-charge. Haha. After happily eating with them, I went up to church and did my decoration duty. My 12 of styrofoam eggs were corroded by the spray! ARHHHHHHHHHHH! At least, I have completed my task and the problem was solved! Haha.
Tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday... Yup, EASTER SERVICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!
It's gonna be the first time of life I celebrate easter in church. It's so exciting. Yeah!
LY ♥ JESUS!
Friday, March 14, 2008
TODAY
10:39 PMIt's TODAY.
My today is really a busy day. I was totally busy.
I was supposed to go and buy flowers with Joyce and decor people. I couldn't go there since it's too far. In order to go there, the way is super complicated. So I went to met up them at 1pm at Arab Street to look at the stuffs. It was the first time I went to Arab street. I love the streets around there. Those look nice and classic. I was a dreamy girl just a moment when I wished that my 'boyfriend' in future would bring me to there on day and and sip some coffee. My goodness, it's quite romantic. Haha. I can tell myself alrd, 'STOP IT!'. Haha.
After walking one around at Arab street, we went off. Ms Naomi Seow quickly chose the bus that directed to 'S'Post'. However, it was 'S'post' at Kallang Bahru. Haha. We stopped there and had to take 107 to Lavender Mrt then took Mrt return to church. We were exhausted. After resting for a while, me and Naomi set up the stuffs to do decor. I saw Pastor How look happy in office. Outside Admin office, there was RINNAH TAN! Haha. She's super cute. We weren't asking her anything but she came towards me and said suddenly, "Mummy is not here, bathing!". My goodness, I want to laugh. "But papa is inside!". I want to laugh out loud. Such a cute and innocent little kid.
At 4pm, Wei Cheng came and had tuition with him. I know Catholic High students are so 'pro' at humanities subject. Yup, I grapped Weicheng who for me, he is able to teach me social studies. He's got 'precious' Prelim 1 results which is 10 points for L1R5. Wah ... Special class somemore. Yup, we discussed about Social studies and 'O' level life. I have absorbed a lot from that 'pro' friend.
After that, we had a short time for dinner before BM. Darryl Seah and JJ helped me and Weicheng buy dinner, McChicken which I haven't eaten for 2 months. Haha. There was fun with me, Weicheng, Darryl, JJ, Jooyu and 'Ruby Baby' (he, himself says so). Ruby Baby was in blue shorts. I laughed like mad when I looked at him, damn cute! Somemore he danced the style of a little kid. Hahaha. There was more fun when Jooyu and Weicheng had a joke arguement. I could laugh like mad!
After dinner, urm, BM time had come. It was the first time I washed toilet. I loved doing those man. It was super super fun with Darryl, JJ, Jooyu, Weicheng and Ruby Baby. The BM team laughed the whole duty. I can't bear it!
What a happy day i have got and now it's the time to 'chong' homework. Haha. Bye!
LY ♥ JESUS!
FREEDOM
12:14 AMI reached home, could not know that there would be so many problems coming up and yet, was blissful and motivated.
This could be the first time I ask for freedom and chance since I knew God? If you were me and not at my position and thinking, you would shout, 'WHAT A TERRIBLE LIFE I HAVE GOT!". But i'm not that kind, i don't want to complain about my life.
My bestfriend said, "A chance to get full scholarship is just like a dog's chance". You know, it's my bestfriend who was telling me in a down mood. They would think that it's hard to get. Yet, I understood what he meant and I knew his mood. That's why he told me so. I don't care! I insisted on that I would my best to get it no matter what. I wait on Him.
Here, the new burden has come. Since I wanted to make my parents less worried about me, I have asked guardians to reduce my home-stay fee. Yet, a condition came with it and the fee will be reduced just a bit. A bit? If I wasn't strong enough at that moment, I would burst into tears. I held my tears and let them drain backwards. What if I tell my parents about it? My goodness, they might be disappointed.
They can't know what the problems I have faced. A single dollar in Singapore costs a lot compared with currency in Vietnam. My parents have done their best to pay for me to come to this precious land to gain the best knowledge and to get the international-standard degree. They are hoping on me who will bring loads of money to support the family, them and my brother. People are digging my parents' energy and blood to buy for their goods. They asked me to benefit their family then I will just pay them lesser 'a little bit'? Wow, a new burden to face when I'm 18 years old; a good age to face problems. WHAT ON EARTH IS THAT?
I don't want to look at the back. I have tried. I have done well. I had a chance to step on the ground of this small island. Two years ago, I have known, I wasn't able to get success. My results went up and down, from top of the mountain to the bottom of it, again and again. I regret? Yes, I do. Now is the time for me to buck up. I'm not wasting my time blogging here but I'm here to do something that benefits my life, such as my English or the way I think. It really does help me.
Devils can never clear away the motivation in me. Look at me, I will do my best! Let's see it!
LY ♥ JESUS!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
ONE-YEAR
10:40 PMWhen I heard about his family background, I wasn't able to think more. I wouldn't know why.
He doesn't look like he had a broken family, he does look happy outside. My friend has a tougher life than me. Only just few hours ago, I knew it. I gave him a look, sad and pitiful while he was talking happily with his friends.
Does it mean he's a strong person? Or does it mean he is weak inside but look strong outside?
His smile was as bright as the sun at the crack of a dawn. He does look happy always.
After knowing the truth, I've wondered about his life, wondered that I can be a better friend of him. I was arrogant to him. I didn't let him get a chance to talk to me 1 year ago.
But I have let him back, talk to me like normally and grin at him friendly and cheerfully. And he did have the chance a few days ago. I caught his sight and of course, he did caught my sight too. I knew I'm different from him, of course. Yup, I'm ready to give my friend a willing smile and a loving look. Nothing else but my encouragement to him. What could I ask? I couldn't move closer to him but he, himself moved towards me and talked.
I would think that I'm a strong person. But in front of him I wasn't. He was braver and more friendly to come towards me. I know what I've done before was wrong. This is the time that I could give my friend my best to him. Since I know more about him, since I'm more curious about him, I know this is the time I should move one step closer and one year of being further was pretty enough.
I love my friend.
LY ♥ JESUS!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
SELF-ESTEEM
11:35 PMYes, about it!
I'm a young teenage girl who doesn't think like a boxer, fastidious and careless. I'm not bad-tempered like a buffalo, not 'emo', not insecure and yet, I'm strong. People would laugh because I'm 'too' confident, I would say 'Thank you for laughing at me!'.
God has changed me from a person who was weak inside and looked strong outside and would never cry. People would think so but in fact, I've been experienced than they know about me. My life is a mysterious journey that you have never heard. My life is an scholar's life. Wow, it's interesting and full of stories to tell. Somemore, I'm under Merit Award. Scholars' life is never in happiness, in fact, it is super 'uper' tough.
Ever since I knew I have grown up in God's will. I'm getting more mature in the way I think and do my stuffs, yup, more wondering and more serious. And, I'm now more secure.
I have friends who were so good to me at first and were traitors later on. In the past, I would take into consideration that they revenge me? or they don't love me? or I have to do something else to make them come back? ... Now listen to what I say, 'Hello, all those are gone!!! Are you shocked enough?"
They would think I'm jealous of what they have? They would think I'm bad and a gossipper who come to people and complain about them? They turn their back to me just because of what I have recommended above. They went to do whatever they want to forget about me such as deleting whatever photos they have with me, washing me away from their favourite list, not calling me everyday, not being closer to me and hugging me like before, not really caring about me just for a moment, trying to making me jealous, etc. So what? Yes, I do observe all these, talk about this on my blog but it doesn't mean I'm insecure.
I have no choice and should say 4 words, "Come and hate me!". In my heart, I know these are people who are insecure and have no self-esteem. I do have and I am secure. I'm not complaining about them. The way I told people is to make them have more self-esteem, more confidence in their spirit, and have a change in their mindset and show them that this is the bad habit inside you that you have to change in order to be a leader in life. And hello, I'm not jealous, I'm happy with the ways I am and the things I have got. God is above everything. Nothing can be more important than Him. Making myself flow in the river of God, I'm happy, cheerful and motivated. I have asked myself, "For what do I have to be jealous?". I have my everything that is God. What else do I need to be jealous of?
I wait on Him and I have my beliefs, in faith I can grow. I have God and myself! I have FAITH - the weapons I have in hands to fight with the devils. Yes, come on, those who are insecure! God is expecting you to wait on Him! I would support you too!
Love,
Ly.
LY ♥ JESUS!
Monday, March 10, 2008
PARENTS
12:12 AMI have hated those who take things for granted especially their life. Yes, I do hate them. Ironically, I even was one person of that kind.
Now, I'm not. I don't take things for granted. I have found that I have got a purpose in life since I knew God. Yup, God has saved my life.
Someway, I never can say that God is not blessing me. He does and He is now blessing me a lot of things. My failure in some subjects of my study is just because I haven't managed my time well to study alternatively. My financial problems one side has been solved. Another side is a big trouble. Yes, I'm having a lot of problems causing me to worry but I'm facing and fighting with them.
Kris is not here with me to take care of my everything. Yet, he is even having parental objection. What else can I say?! Kris would have headache to lead such a troublesome girl like me. Yes, I'm not gonna let him worry and yet I'm trying to solve those by myself. I come to my leaders with solution not problem. 'I have troubles' doesn't mean 'my leader has no trouble'. Even now, he is grounded, unable to contact and has no handphone. He has more troubles than me. Aha!
Normally, he would be the one that I share a lot of stuffs, even my own very very personal stuff. He is my leader and he knows what he should do. Now he is not here, I would have to stand strong. I'M STANDING STRONG WITH MY FAITH IN GOD! I'm managing my problems as well enough, even I think I can manage it better than an adult.
I have an experiencing life. I have got people to share my feelings and my problems. That costs my life to be GREAT! Yes, I have a great life. An experiencing and troublesome life is a happy life. A hopeless life and entertaining life is an unhappy life. I do LOVE my life a lot. I have God. I have precious family. I have gorgeous Pastors. I have wonderful leader. I have sweet and caring friends whom I would love and remember in my heart forever.
My life is difficult and tough. Yet, there're people who are enjoying their comfort life without making an effort. They take things for granted. They have family with them to accompany them walking in their journey to destiny. I, the scholar without parents beside me, am facing problems that they have never faced in life. Do they know that how harsh it is? Do they know how to live their life with joy, hope and vision? Do they know that with parents beside them, they can do more precious things than me and do a lot of things without wonders? Do they know that they can do more significant and meaningful things for God in their lives than me?
What can I say? I just hope those people can watch out of their comfort zone and step out of it. They can begin to know what is burden, acknowledge what is right and wrong. I'm here waiting on God who would bring me to destiny.
Love,
Ly.
LY ♥ JESUS!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
8TH.MARCH.
6:58 PMToday is weird. Yes, it is.
I've been not well.
Early morning, I went to church in happy mood and full of excitement that I'm doing usher duty today both for End Times Bible Study and service. I came 30 minutes earlier than reporting time. Church didn't have a lot of people in early the morning. I went to Pastor's toilet to check the aroma theorapy. I met Pastor Lia, brushing her teeth. My Pastor is pretty. Her voice is so nice and soft just like a lullaby. I said 'Hi Pastor, I come to light up the aroma therapy for you.' She asked me why I came so early and how Pastor Serene (my guardian) was. Yup, she is so nice and always caring about others.
The worship song today, 'I can hear the heavens sings' sang by Pastor Lia, sowed into my heart. Her voice is so awesome and extraordinary that can make people easily feeling thrilled to tears.
I happily did usher today with Shermaine. Yes, I have always been happy to do my ministries. I love my ministries. However, during End Times, I had got extremely headache. I wouldn't know why how terrible it was. I felt tired all the times, half like falling down to sleep anytime and half like trying to keep myself awake. In addition, the ache made me want to burst. The session was long. I can't concentrate to hear what Pastor said. This really caused me to regret that I could not hear what Pastor said. I need to buy the CD. I had home before the main service, was dismissed from usher duty, ate and took medicine and now I have been better.
Anyway, thanks Darryl and Keegan who have cared for me. Darryl really worried about me and asked me to sms him to inform him whether I have reached home. Keegan dismissed me from duty. Yup, they're my brothers in Christ and of course, they care for me.
'I can hear the heavens sing' caused me to look for it on internet. I had not known the song's name before. I went to search. This song was really difficult and bear to find. 'iTunes' doesn't have. I searched once on imeem. There wasn't the song. A bit sad but no, I kept looking for it.
Haha, God blessed me 'cause of my efforts and patience. You know what, my churchmate coeccidently rescued me. I went to google.com and searched by the sentence in the lyric, 'holy i can hear the heavens sing'. I saw 'char' ... WOW, it's Yvonne Char's blogspot. She is my churchmate. I found her by one entry she talked about 'I can hear the heavens sings'. She loves the song too. Gorgeous!
'i really love "I love the heavens sing" (: The vocals can make youuuu .... sneeze. no, it can make you open your hearts and mouth and follow the words: "Holy, I can hear the heavens sing. Holy, I can hear the heavens sing. Hallelujah, they sing. Hallelujah, they call. Hallelujah, to the risen Lord."
I will sing this to God when I see Him and when I hear the heavens sing. (:'
(Posted by Yvonne Char (05032008) - http://yvonnecharlala.blogspot.com/)
I went to imeem again. YEAH! I have found the song. HAPPY!
Oh, today is Happy women's day, 8th March. I remembered in Vietnam during this day, a lot of guys went to propose pretty girls. Haizzz... it's my mum's day not the day for you guys to propose. Haha. Just kidding. I should go and pray for mum in this day. I hope she will be alright after all things happening.
Urm, I have been praying for my leader to come back. Kristopher Fu is an awesome leader. He is the guys of 5 talents man. I'm proud of having a leader like him. But I would never let him worry about me during this period of time when he is absent and having PO. At least I've got Fifi, Tock and Darryl. They are awesome, man! I've begun to love to share things with Fifi. Yup, she is my mentor. She is so nice. I'm waiting for one day I will go shopping with Fifi. Hahaha.
Tock had new haircut. I love her haircut man. Cool! 'I love Tockieeeee!', this is the way I impress to her how expressively and verbally I love her. Haha.
Mr. Seah Darryl is my caring friend, asking me to accompany him to go around in church. For example, we went to give out bubble tea for leaders in 41st day or we went to cut the 'Back to basics' cards for Zone D. Haha. He's a nice friend. Aiyo, the 'Adam Khoo' - cheating money is so irritating. It made me missed Zone D's challet. Darryl is really bored to hear what I explain to him. Shalalala... He asked me to pon SMILE camp. Urm, I wish I could but I have paid 135bucks for that stupid programme. I can't skip. It's my money. Haizzz, it's about double of my tithe. I hate teacher I/C. (You would know who he is.)
Urmm ... i'm going to church tomorrow, of course. I must listen to Pastors' sermon. I can't miss it! Yup! I help my 'awesome baybeh' JooJoo pay for the zone chalet's fund too. I'm BUSY!
Yes, it's my 'today', not special but happy enough. I'm not gonna be an 'emo' girl. It's not the way to become a leader if I keep being 'emo'. That's why I have been happy all the times although I got failure, loss, obsession and burdens. I have been laughing, smiling and being happy because I know Someone has saved my life. Someone inspired me. Someone gives me power and strength. And Someone has given me a purpose in life.
God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, I have been so happy to be with You!
Yup, I'm going to send Mr. Chin my T-shirt design for sports leaders now. Hope he will be happy to see that. Haha. Hence, I will do holiday homework. Byebye!
Love,
Ly.
(P/S: Such a long entry!)
Friday, March 7, 2008
UPDATE!
12:19 AMI think I really need to update my blog ...
Aiyoooo, I really don't have so much time to do such a free stuff!
But howww?
All my classmates begin to link me!
I HAVE TO LINK BACK!
I'M A VERY VERY BUSY GIRL!
My schedule is all packed.
It's a tough thing for those who wanted to invite me to go out.
First sentence when I replied them is, "I don't think I'm able to go."
Sorry, if you really want to punch me out.
'O' LEVEL?!
I have got stressed but I learn to manage stress.
They say i'm nuts and feeling high all the time?
It's just I'm happy with my life.
I love to make people laugh and myself laugh first.
Nothing much, but ... crazy!
It's late now.
Haven't done a lot of homework!
RUSH!
LY.
00:25
07.03.08
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
JESUS&GRAVITY
12:13 AMI'm so touched when I listen to this song ...
I've loved this song since I heard the first sentence in this song ... This touched my heart.
I'm His - my Lord.JESUS and GRAVITYI'm to the point where it don't add upI can't say I've come this far with my guitar on pure dumb luckThat's not to say i know it allCause everytime I get too high up on my horse I fall Cause I've gotSomethin' lifting me upSomethin' holding me downSomethin' to give me wings andSomethin' to keep my feet on the groundI've got all I need, Jesus and gravity But I'm as bad as anyoneTaking all these blessings in my life for granted one by oneWhen I start to thinkin' it's all meWell somethin' comes along and knocks me right back on my kneesand I've got Somethin' lifting me upSomethin' holding me downSomethin' to give me wings andSomethin' to keep my feet on the groundI've got all i need, Jesus and gravity He's my friendHe's my lightHe's my wingsHe's my ? and I've gotSomethin' lifting me upSomethin' holding me downSomethin' to give me wings andSomethin' to keep my feet on the groundI've got all I'm gonna need,I got Jesus, I got Jesus, I got Somethin' lifting me upSomethin' holding me downSomethin' to give me wings andSomethin' to keep my feet on the groundI've got all I'll ever need, cause I got Jesus and gravity Somethin' lifting me upSomethin' holding me downSomethin' to give me wings andSomethin' to keep my feet on the groundI've got all I'll needcause I've got Jesus and gravityJesus, I've got Jesus, I've got Jesus He's my everythingHe lifts me upHe gives me wingsHe gives me hopeand He gives me strengthand that's all I'll ever need As long as He keeps lifting me upHe is my lifeHe is my God He is my wings He is my flight Lift me, I've got Jesus, I've got Jesus and that's all I need