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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

HEROINE!

9:45 PM

It's her - the woman of destiny ...
Our heroine ...
Our Pastor ...
Our spiritual mother ...
Our leader ...
Our role model ...
Our supporter ...
Our teacher ...
Our love ...

Pastor, happy birthday to you!
Forever I L♥VE YOU!

KOPI KAT KLAN ICE KACANG LYRICS

Ice Kachang

by Kopi Kat

Yai yai yai yai…. (repeat)

You always say I’m unromantic

Don’t know ways to make a girl tick

I must say you’re right about it

For I am truly unpoetic

But I am not dumb

And not that stupid

It’s just that sometimes brain not working

So I didn’t sleep

Used my little wit

To write this little bit (Yai yai yai yai yai yai yai…)

You are my ice kachang (ice kachang)

In this tropical heat (my heart melts for you…)

You are my favourite dessert (ooh la la)

So inviting, so sweet

Would you like to bo bo cha cha (cha cha cha)

Come along and dance with me (shoo bee doo wap shoo bee doo wap)

You are my love

My tutti fruitti

Someone I’d like to eat

Sha la la… Yai yai yai yai…

Every time when we go dating

First the movies then go shopping

You always hint I’m unexciting

It has been so since the beginning

But I am not dumb

And not so stupid

‘Tis just that sometimes I’m a blur king

So I didn’t eat

Used my little wit

To write this little bit (Yai yai yai yai yai yai ya…)

You are my ice kachang (ice kachang)

In this tropical heat (my heart melts for you)

You are my favourite dessert (ooh la la)

So inviting, so sweet

Would you like to bo bo cha cha (cha cha cha)

Come along and dance with me (shoo bee doo wap shoo bee doo wap)

For you are my love

My one atapchee

Someone I’d like to eat

Each time I look into your eyes

I see some pretty colours, very nice

I wouldn’t mind paying any price

I’m kachang over you (I sago honeydew)

You are my ice kachang (ice kachang)

In this tropical heat (my heart melts for you…)

You are my favourite dessert (ooh la la)

So inviting, so sweet

Would you like to bo bo cha cha (cha cha cha)

Come along and dance with me (shoo bee doo wap shoo bee doo wap)

For you are my love

My tutti fruitti

Someone I’d like to eat

Love,
LY ♥ JESUS!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

CLOSE!

11:47 AM

Hold me close.
City Harvest Church

From the day You took my hand
Never want to be apart of You again
You are my councel and my friend
You're the still small voice in me
Every time I need to find
My way back home
You are the compass of my soul

Every step I take You will lead me
With You I'll walk the ranging seas
You're the strength when I'm weary
You give me reason to believe

Hold me close
Fill my life to overflow
Holy spirit come and
Show me Your way
Won't You show me Your way

All my life only You can satisfy
Let my faith ignite
Consuming fire
You're the burning desire
In my life

P/S: A song makes my tears drain out :)

LY ♥ JESUS!

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

AGAIN-STRONGER

8:47 PM

Sugar Daddy, should I call this "my letter to Heaven"?
My letter to You today has so many things that I want to let You know how WONDERFUL You are!
Once again, You have saved me...

My letter to You today has parts which I would name it accordingly to what I have experienced today...

My first: INSECURITY!

Sugar Daddy, I failed to believe one thing. I even failed to believe two people who are important in my life.
Today I have thought that the insecurity that You found in my heart. But it has made me stronger after repenting.

Sitting in Artiste Room alone and writing Geography notes for revision, on my ears songs are played. Tears began to drain out of my eyes. In my thoughts, I had been thinking too much about something that happened before.

I'm always happy when I pressed the button and said 'HI' to the receptionist in church. With my excitement, I'm singing softly in my mouth with my 'superb' high mood. Putting my bag on the chair set up at Auditorium, I took out my headset and stopped playing the songs in my handphone. Sister Alicia was happy to see me, her beloved coordinator. I was happy too!

JooYu saw me and jumped like mad in her love for me. I didn't reply her message. Umm, it's a bit carelessness of me. I read the message during my lesson today and I could reply as my teacher was in class. I replied by the way that I ofter tease her to make her less disappointed. I'm fierce, it's true. She told me that Dom has come back as she was playing pool with Bellerie. We decided to go up to say "Hi' to Dom a bit later on after I would have set up the quilt and pillows.

Singing the 'Nanapoopoo' song, I happily went into Decoration's store in Artiste Room. Alone, I brought out 10 super big pillows to Auditorium. I've got used to do things alone. After that, I brought out the quilt which had just washed by laundry, nicely-smelled. Shi Hao, the RI softball captain, came to have follow-up with Fifi. He helped me to set up the area. After setting up, Fifi came. We, four, together went up to Admin office to say 'Hi' to Dominic.

I had thought my leaders didn't care about me at all. I had this thought so many times in the past. I thought they didn't like me and my presence in front of them was invisible. My insecurity has caused me to be down. I felt so disappointed. Somehow, once, I was losing my spirit and faith. I thought I would walk away from the church just because they would not like the way I am. At that moment, I knew I still had my love for You, Daddy. Tears dropped down from my cheeks so many times.

But...

Somehow, Daddy, You always hold my hands when I lost my faith in my leaders. Father, You have told me to keep my faith. You have told me to have 'thick skin' on my face. You have told me to bear the burden. You have told me, 'Your leaders are testing you and looking at how good I am at bearing all the circumstances'. I became stronger and stronger. The boldness in me has been increased.

Sorry, Daddy, the insecurity in me somehow was still there. My heart burst into tears. I was doubtful, 'Is it true if my leaders don't like me?'. Sometimes, I could not hold my tears in my eyes. Those just drained on my face without me knowing. Afraid, I hided my tears by wiping them quickly. At that moment, my heart was not strong... I would even be hot-tempered and threw my anger to others.

But...

Your Kingdom in me has called my name, 'Be strong and of good courage!'. I fell down but stood up again when I have looked back and considerred again what Pastors and leaders have done for me. They brought me up from a shy, full of fear and uncontrollable girl to a girl of today - A STRONG GIRL WITH A SPIRITUAL HEART. You were there for me, telling me how to walk on. My fire is lighted up again. I gradually believed that all of those moments is when the devil wants to steal me from You. You are more powerful, of course, You pulled me back and held me tightly in Your warm hands. You've saved me... I felt blessed.

I got stronger again.

Sugar Daddy, thank You for all the blessing and for saving me when my feets are not strong to stand up. Thank You, Daddy, without You, there would be no 'ME' of today. Thank You for empowering me when I face the discouragement. Thank You for the security that You gave me when I was insecure. Thank You for the smile on my face that You have made on me. Thank You for giving me visions of being a successful woman in future. Thank You for EVERYTHING!

I will do everything that You trust in me that I can do it!

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My second: SUGAR DADDY NEEDS MUCH OF ME...

Sugar Daddy, forgive me if I would have been weakened...

I know You always give me chances to be changed, to be encouraged and to do my best in Your will.

Daddy, I was on the bus on the way back home. I saw those Chinese girls in VJC uniforms. They are also foreigners living alone without parents aside to bring them up. I was looking at the bunch of bags of food and personal stuffs that they bought. They can do it, "Will I be able to do also?". At first, I thought I would be inferior to them. Looking at their faces, I thought of their future which will be bright with full of success. But You have given me a thought, "No, you're not inferior to them! Definitely NOT!"

You told me that I can do better than them. You told me that I'm special and different from them because I have got You - the Heavenly Father who always gives me power and importantly my SPIRIT! Who say I cannot be like them or I'm inferior to them? Sugar Daddy says, "My lovely daughter is superior to them!". Daddy, I'm so touched that You have put your trust in me that I CAN!

I'm now I have more power to study well. I'm doing my best for You, Sugar Daddy! I will bring the pride for my parents who have put much effort to work to support my study, for my Pastors, for my church and for You!

I know You have expected in me that I would bring revival in my church. Daddy, I was weakened. Sorry for the little spirit that I had. You need much of me ... I'm encouraged now to do something. I'm stronger and have my boldness to do Your mission.

Daddy, I will bring my vision to come to pass for Your love that You have given preciously to me!

To be with them, Pastors, leaders and my dearest Heart of God church, I will do my best!

Amen!

LY ♥ JESUS!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

BUILD!

10:46 PM

I'm building Your house
For all generations ...
I'm building Your house
With all expectations ...

Today sermon has changed my angle of life ... :)
Never be in debt!
Save now, spend later!
Cookie jar philosophy!

BE PATIENT AND SELF-CONTROLLED!
BUILD HIS HOUSE!

For Kris
I still believe in you.
Be on fire again! :)

Love,
LY ♥ JESUS!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

FUN!

12:46 AM

I had a lot of fun yesterday. Now is 12 45am in the morning, actually midnight. So I typed 'yesterday'.

They say forever I'm a sleepy girl in class. I can be super blur due to the lack of sleeping. My eyes are easily sticked together without me knowing. My shoes were even somewhere I could not know. Haha... I drew this last year. It's really typical of me every morning. But by power of Mr. Chin's scolding and my everymorning coffee, I have been awake every morning. Hehehe. (I give you a V-peace).

Lessons could ever be boring. Alright? However, I found that I'm excited to study any subject if I put my effort to learn and get the understanding. I didn't hate any one of them and just scared. Haha.

I love Chemistry although my result was from A1 to ... It's all haywire. Doing experiments is really so exciting. I want to do a lot but school has their limit too. Tsk ...

It's my titration experiment last year... Wah, I got the pale pink standard colour. Yup!

And yesterday, we did titration again. So fun!!! Before doing experiment of titration, we did experiment of distinguish alkenes and alkanes. Wah, the 3 test tubes appear with different colours. So interesting! Hahaha

Description 1: Earthquake to shake the test tubes and let the reaction occur. HAHAHAHA. Teck Ee was also shaking. HAHAHA

Description 2: The nice colours appearrrrrrrrrr! So fun! However, there's an irritating smell. Hahahaha.

Lessons in the lab are always fun!

... After school, I and Quynh Anh went to flowershop to buy flowers for decoration's duty. She really got excited to see flowers. I could say, 'Girls mah!'. Hahahaha. I'm addicted to flowers. Hahaha. If somebody marries me in future, surely everyday he will see flowers appear in the house. My house should be designed and decorated by me too. It's wonderful! :)

And my decoration duty was great althought 3/4 of time I did it alone...

It's inside Pastors' guestroom.

It's for Pastors' Office and Al Fresco Pastors' Table.

At reception ...

I LOVE FLOWERSSSSSSSSSSS! <3

LY ♥ JESUS!

FRIEND-LOVER

12:29 AM

I'm my friends' lover. Don't ask me why, just give me an opened-mouth. Hahaha

My classmates love me. I have seen that as they always support me, greet me every morning with their great smiles, make some jokes with me during lessons and search for me to go home with them. My relationship with my classmates and schoolmates has been much more improved. God is there. :)

I have found that the boldness in me has been accelerating as God, the only One, can bring me out of my comfort zone. I'm from a person of hinding myself in my thoughts to a person of being bold to talk to classmate and have fun communicating with them. God has changed my life.

I spent some of my little time going to eat KFC with them at Singapore Post. I know more and more people in school. My friendship circle has been widened as more greeting moments happen when they meet me. I'm respected. I volunteered to become class sports leader. Happily working with those naughty kids, I felt so loved by them. They wave me everytime they see me. God is really great in my life. I have been no longer an 'emo' girl but a ALWAYS HAPPY girl in school, laughing, smiling, joking, talking like mad and being cheerful all the time. Yup, stress is terrible but it doesn't conquer me.

Once, they asked about me whether I'm going to church. They know I've been doing things in God's will. They're admired and more and more love me. They keep asking me about this and asking me about that. I answered them in a cheerful way that makes them laugh. The 'emo' girl has become a cheerful joker. They love me and I love my friends too.

They are great and not 'typical Singaporeans' that I considered before. That's what I called 'blessed'.

(My spiritual family <3)

Love,
LY ♥ JESUS!

Sunday, April 6, 2008

DRINK

9:41 PM

I have a hard time...

Does it mean that if we step down from any ministry, people would walk backwards to us? They won't talk to us? They would think that we don't love the ministry? They would give me a weird look and give an arrogant looking? Is that the way that they love their people in the ministry? Do they understand what the purpose of the house of God is? I don't feel sad but disappointed.

But the security in God keeps me going on. Let's see who are the insecure people. I still greet them as my fellows, my sisters and brothers in Christ. But I didn't have a reply back from them that I have got used to it. I'm still doing in God's will as I keep my relationship with them. If they refuse it, let them be so. I still do what God has told me to do. God's light shine my way.

I have stepped down for more than one month. In the purpose of doing my vision for God and for my church. I'm scholar, concentrating on my study to get good score. My purpose in life is to get into any good JC in Singapore and get my full scholarship. So I will be able to do for the rest of my life here, serving God and people. I'm doing God's mission.

But why do people throw to me that piercing look into my heart? They think they can stop their relationship with me from the ministry? They would make me backslide from church? NO WAY! I'm here to serve God, to serve people and let people grow in the ministries. Their piercing and arrogant look just makes me stronger and stronger in God's will. People out there should change the way they are to let the ministry grow with the church in order to fulfil Pastors' expectation as HOGC 2.0.

God doesn't bless gossiping people and complaining people but God blesses people who work hard and have faith in God. I'm inspired by God's vision and my vision for Him. Amen!

I love this song. You would think it's an 'emo' song but it's not at all. It's the song that I follow in the Holy Spirit!

LY ♥ JESUS!

Saturday, April 5, 2008

CERTAIN

11:03 PM

I would not know what title I should put for this entry. I thought of "MANY" as I have many things to talk. I thought of "LOYALTY" but loyalty is just one of the topics. I thought of "RANDOM" but random is not so correct. I don't know so I just put "CERTAIN" as this certain week, I have had a lot of events in life. What should I start with?

Ok, let's talk about softball. I love SOFTBALL, man! Since secondary 2, I played softball as one of my favourite sports. It's so fun. It's a very western kind of sports that if you sat down in stadium and watched a softball match, you would jump up and down when you observe the ball fly super fast over the field. The hit, the catch and the throw are so cool that keep my eyes stick to it. The feeling of holding the ball in the glove you wear makes you all over-excited. However, once I had an accident during playing softball as the stick hit to the left side of my head. It cost me $81 to pay for medical checkups. Hix ... Since that accident, I'm accused to play softball but i love softball for the rest of my life. I miss playing this game.

Once, it's so amazing that my Pastor, Pastor Lia, also loves softball a lot. She was a sports journalist for the Straits Times and even a softball player in past. I found a common hobby as favourite between me and Pastor. Yeahhh! And the great minds have common will. Haha. And Sushi (Shi Hao), our RI (Raffles Instituition) softball captain came. As the result, Pastor is going to watch his final match and me too. Wow! I'm so excited about it! Let's watch softball on 23rd, April at RI!

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Yup, this week I have been super super super busy working for church. It's my favourite thing to do whenever I love God. Of course, forever! I have felt exhausted sometimes but by faith, I'm still doing what I think that those are bringing me up to another level. My journey of this week is still long ...

School which is one of the most troublesome problem to me but is the thing that I'm doing my best to make my future bright in His will. Alright? The truth is I don't want to slack. I've never been late for school since the beginning of the year. Last year until now, I have got a day of absence. People would look at me and throw at me a serious look when the mouth is open widely. I think that I'm a bit 'kiasu'. Anyway, I've been stressed but actually I'm cocking well. Haha.

On thursday, I went to church for CG after that went home and taught the kids. They're under my control. Yeah yeah! They want to be naughty and lazy to study??? No way! I'm one of the fiercest teacher ... Haha. Word by Fifi was so powerful. Loyalty is decision. I'm loyal to God and church. I LOVE HOGCCCCCCCCCCCCCC!

Yesterday, Friday, I went to school like normally. After that, I dropped down at S'post and back to church, once more. I did decor. Wah ... I love flowers and do flowers no matter what. It's so exciting. Actually Yilin asked me to come for PGSM's preview usher. However, I didn't come as I wanted to complete my work. After finishing decor, I thought I had time to go home but Darryl reminded me to go for BM. I nearly forgot about it. I wore my uniform and cleaned toilet. That was so fun. Darryl Seah kept sraying out the water to our face. Somemore, we kept chasing after the dragon fly. It was like a drama that could not make you stop laughing. Haha. BM is VERY FUN!

Today, the busiest day that made me burst out. From 9am to 1030am, I had English Elcot Program in school. Continually, I had Chemistry short session to get back the Chem paper until 11 20pm. I 'chong' back to church to have 'heart to heart' session. I thought I would be late however, it was a talking session by having lunch together. It was powerful as a session that taught me how to talk to people as they become our burdens. Haha. After 'heart to heart', I have continue with pray meeting with the whole church. Amazing and annointing miracles only happen in his house, so powerful...

After prayer meeting, I was supposed to have decoration meeting. Once more, I forgot it. I'm sinner. I'm sincerely confessing my sins. But I had got usher duty. I thought i could make it but usher was in a rush to do everything. Arhhh ... I was bursting out. However, usher duty was GOOD! I feel it was really Usher Ministry 2.o. So exciting!!! Service was also powerful with Pastor Kevin Loo from CHC Kuala Lumpur. He's a great man of God! =)

Wah, I'm thinking of myself who would be even busier than an adult, doing much things in church. But at least I found a peace in my heart of serving God and people, spending time in church and talking to people and loving God and Pastors. I have found my loyalty...!

P/s: Dear friends, I have found that my entry today is such a long long long long entry! Tsk ...

LY ♥ JESUS!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

PUPPY!

9:29 PM

It's really hard for me to update my blog everyday so that I'm able to record down every single story of my precious memory. Haha, after 'O' level, i'm sure there's a lot of fun posts with a lot of funny pictures I have kept.

Umm, so ... after 3 month of waiting to see puppies to be born, 2 days ago finally our pretty female furry friend, Mizzu, gave birth to one puppy. Although I was a bit dissappointed because I thought Mizzu could have given birth to 3 or 4 puppies, i'm still happy to see the little brown furry puppy. Normally, as I know, one dog can give birth to 5 puppies. But this type of species only can give birth to either 1 or 2.

I'm not sure how David and Joshua have named the puppy but the name is from Terry. Anyway, the puppy is so small. First time of life I see a puppy that has just been given birth. So small. He already has a lot of fur. It's brown colour with some white dots on the top of the head. At the end of the tail is a bit of white. That's fun. The feet are super super cute, still red and instable.

It's so funny that Mizzu gave birth 1 day before her one-year-old birthday. Hahaha. Haiz... One year old? Humans consider a little baby but she gave birth?! It's so ironic but it's animals and not humans. HAHAHAHA. How excited David and Joshua are when Mizzu gave birth, just like me.

The little puppy has not opened his eyes yet but actively crawls around the basket. He drinks milk like 24 hours/7 days. I have no comment! He would be hungry like mad. Anyway, it's nature and I can't deny any of the reasons. Haha.

One thing to know. Mizzu took care of the puppy. Of course, it's her child. Terry was roaming around the cage to see the puppy. Mizzu came up, jumped in temptation and barked at Terry like mad. The cacophony in my house become worse. You know, i love dogs as friendly furry friends but I hate them barking, man! Hahaha.

Terry seems to be abandoned by Mizzu. He becomes more and more fierce. Tsk tsk! The way he barks is more and more irritating. Before the puppy was born, Terry and Mizzu often jumped, ran around and even fought and barked at each other. But now, little mother Mizzu is taking care of her little puppy, everyday is in the cage, leaking the fur of the puppy. What would I say? "Mother mah!"

Haha, it's my story of the puppy! Can I end it lately?

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Today was great in school. Ivan Poh, together with Shermaine and Susanna, went to my school. Ivan really made me shocked! What if I didn't decide to go to canteen at the 2nd recess? I won't be able to meet them. I turned off my handphone because I protect it from being confiscated. Yup. (That's really ...). Shermaine told me that she smsed me but I wasn't able to see the message.

I happily wanted to drink strawberry yoghurt. I went to canteen. From far, I looked at one striking guy in black colour t-shirt with the hair style that seemed to be familiar with my view. That hair, brown the whole trunk and one stripe of light yellow at the middle of top of the head. I was wondering, 'Who is that?'

I moved closer a bit and asked myself a few questions when I was suspicious, was that Ivan Poh? I thought, "Huh? How come is Ivan Poh here?"

A few steps closer, my GOODNESSSSSSSSSS! It was him. I ran like mad towards the three weird people sat in the canteen. Shermaine Tan and Susanna from B4 were there also. They two are ex-Bartleyans. I happily waved to Ivan a few meters away and called him out loud, "Ivannnn!!!!"

He happily showed his neverstopped grin. Shermaine and Susanna was also smiling at me. I was totally shocked! Our church ZS was in my school. My eyes opened widely but my heart was happy as they came to visit us. Hehe. I wasn't sure why they came to my school for but I don't care lah, I feel happy when I see my church people. Anyway, we're sisters and brothers in Christ. :)

I talked to them for 30 minutes before the lesson started. Some of my classmates know Shermain as she was one of the famous councilors in school few years ago. They came and surrounded the group. Only Ivan was a guy. Hahaha. After that, Ivan went back to church and hang out with Zhi Xiang (I think so). Shermaine, Susanna and Susanna's friend walked around the school to meet all friends. I was on the way to the left. Shermain and Susanna were talking to Justin Gan (tsk!). I could not stop there to continue talking to them. Hix. ... sadly, I said goodbye and walked with my classmate to Physics lab. I know they probably went to meet Justin, Dick and Yong Chiang.

I hoped she would invite them to come one day. Hehehe. At least like that I feel happy enough because they three should get saved again. Alright?! It's greatly that I have Shermaine as my sister in Christ. I love church people the best. It's a little of happiness in me. Amen!

LY ♥ JESUS!